Pastor J visits a psychiatrist to address concerns about his mental health.
He shares his past struggles with insecurity and his decision to leave the church.
He comes to a realization about God's love and returns to the church to help others.
The psychiatrist explains the purpose of psychiatry and reassures Pastor J that it's not voodoo.
This is great. This is perfect. This is great. Nothing. Nothing. Look at this. Nothing. Oh no. What am I gonna do? I don't know. Oh, I'm in trouble. I'm in trouble. I'm dead. I'm gone. I don't know. I don't know. This is... I'm in trouble. I'm in trouble. Look at this. I'm in trouble. I'm in absolute trouble. Trouble. What are you doing? I'm in trouble. That's what I'm doing. I'm in trouble. I'm in absolute trouble. I'm... I'm in trouble. I got problems. I got problems. I've been standing here hitting my knee with a hammer for the last 20 minutes. I got problems. You're right. You've got issues. You've got plenty of them. Hitting your knee and carrying on. You've got problems. No, that's not what I mean. In other words, you know how when you go to the doctor and they sit there and you hit your knee? Look at this. Look at this. Nothing. My knee won't, my leg won't go up. I'm in trouble. Look at this. Look at this. Nothing. That did not help me. Is that what you're talking about? No, that was not what I was talking about. Look. Look at that. Look. Look at this. Nothing. Nothing. Look at that. Nothing. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I don't know what I'm going to do. That don't prove anything. And furthermore, why are you worrying about something like that anyway? Because I got a message today from the district. What? That you had to hit your knee to feel that it'll go up? No! They told me I have to go see a head shrinker. You know, and them voodoo head shrinkers. Come on. I think you've been watching too many of them, you know, spooky horror movies. You're sending me to see a psychiatrist like I'm nuts or something! Psychiatrists don't do things like this. they sit and talk with you and ask questions and stuff. I mean, there's nothing to that. Yeah, but why are they sending me to him? I don't know. What did I do wrong? They're probably sending every one of them. I mean it just hey why don you just wait and see Go see him and see what happens I mean don make a big deal out of nothing Yeah well what if he sits there and examines me and says I nuts I don't know what to do. I hardly think he's going to do that. I don't think, if you go in and act like yourself and don't get all nervous and wigged out, I think you'll be okay. Just be yourself when you go in. You'll be fine. You know what? You know what? You're right. I knew I was. No, but you're right. You know what I'm going to do? I'm going to go in there. And I'm going to let him examine my head. And you know what he can do? He can examine my head all day long. And you know what he's going to find in there? When he examines my head? He's gonna find nothing. Okay. You're right. Oh, you know what I meant. I get off. Take care of Jasmine. I'm out of here. He got mad, Jazzy. Yeah, he got mad. I've been looking over your records, and I have seen that you are the pastor of a church. I assume you enjoy this, but the thing that stands out to me is when you left the church and went to California. Why don't you tell me about that? Well, I guess the major reason that I took off and left, it's not so much... It was that I felt like I was not doing good by the church. I had a lot of issues, a lot of insecurities in who I was. And that's why I guess I ran. when I was in California I came to the realization one day after I lost what was considered my best friend my little dog Diva I was looking at the sunrise in California on the beach one day and it came to me that you know what we all have insecurities we all have things that we don like about ourselves but that doesn mean God doesn like us And if God likes me then I must be doing something right And so that's when I decided to come back and I felt like I was okay. Mm-hmm. Cool. So I came back to the church and I decided to try to come back for the simple reason that I felt like, you know what, I can help them maybe be a little better through their insecurities. and they can help me be a little better through my insecurities and maybe together we can all learn to be better together and thus we can all learn to work together and through this we may all become better Christians and we can build the kingdom of God through that. Hmm. Please go on. So that's why I came back. Do I wish I would have left so long? No. Do I think I should have done a better job in how I handled the situation? Yes, I think I could have done better. but I feel like Paul Paul said that I forget about those things which are behind and I press towards the mark and that's what I've had to do I've had to let go of the past and I've got to press towards the future okay well I thank you for coming Pastor Jay you may leave Wait, you mean that's it? What did you expect when you came here? Were you thinking that you was going to see, like, voodoo men and potions and chicken bones and all kinds of crazy things like this? Well, hardly. Well, okay, maybe a little bit. you know, maybe just a little bit. Little bit Little bit That not what we do here Pastor Jay see what you have to understand Mr. Pastor Jay is this psychiatry is not a voodoo type thing that's not what this is psychiatry is no different than any other type of medicine I mean do you think that your doctor, your medical doctor is going to do a little potion on you and make you feel better and chant over you that's not what he does and neither is the case when it comes to psychiatry psychiatry is just a way for people that are sick that have issues with things in life that are having a hard time dealing with things to just talk it out. That's all it is. And that is what this is. So you did good, and there's no reason to worry about anything. Go on and have a good rest of your day, and we will send the reports, our reports, to the denomination, and you will hear from us soon. Uh, yeah? Here's your report. What, they just faxed it? Yeah. I don't want it. Ah, come on. I don't want it. Where's the bravery? Come on. I don't have any. I lost it all. It's all gone. Whatever bravery I had, I'm gone. I'm not gonna read it. What if they... what if... oh no. What if they tell me that I'm nuts? What if they tell me that I can't pay the pastor anymore? What if they put me in prison? What if they tell you you're alright? Oh, what a shocker. You're finding this real funny, aren't you? You're loving this. Why don't we just read it? Because I don't want to read it. Okay. You read it. I don't want to know. I don't want to know. I just don't want to know. I don't want to know nothing. I just don't tell me. Well. Okay, okay. I don't know what that's all about, but I gotta find out. Just tell me. Just, okay. I'm Brace. Well, believe it or not.
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